Oh my!!

Oh my goodness it has been so long since I posted last. I have been a bad blogger. LOL. I will start blogging again now because I'm on this amazing journey lately and maybe someone out there will like to hear about it.

I have a wonderful friend Melissa Herrera that has taken me under her wing with my walk with God. I'm now in my second bible study and enjoying it so much. It has opened so many doors for me and opened my eyes in so many ways. I have been going through a lot lately and this has helped me find amazing peace. I actually am having a hard time finding the words to describe this to you. Finding this peace is so calming. I'm afraid though of all the feelings I have been having during this journey of self discovery. There is this woman I'm longing to be and I'm determined to find it.

So I will be on here more often to share this journey with you, but I want to thank you again Melissa! You are such an amazing friend to me and I can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for our friendship! YOU ROCK!!

Sweating it

So I have recently started reading "Don't sweat the small stuff." I'm learning how to not let the little things get in my way everyday. As you know....I do sweat alot of stuff. The more I think about it, the things I sweat are so stupid. I freak about the house so much. Seriously I need to not let it get to me. I think it is mental! LOL. I have been laid up with this ankle for a few weeks and sitting around in the mess has been driving me crazy to the point where I'm hopping around cleaning. Honestly though, no one has come over so why do I care so much. I guess my fear is someone will show up unexpectly and everything will be out of order. The book states that, "The need for perfection and the desire for inner tranquility conflict with eachother. As you begin to eliminate your need for perfection in all areas of your life, you'll begin to dicover the perfection in life itself." Oh sooooo true. I hope when I'm done with this book I will be able to sit back and enjoy life a little bit more and not sweat things so much. I just wanted to share that with you guys.





P.S.
Did you watch last nights episode of John and Kate Plus 8? They had Kate answering questions from viewers. I discovered someone else loves high heels as much as me! Kate wears them everywhere!! Just like me!!!! :)

Monday Quotes

Monday's Quotes.........

A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no aw, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.
- Agatha Christie

Unconditional love is loving your kids for who they are, not for what they do ... it isn't something you will achieve every minute of every day. But it is the thought we must hold in our hearts every day.
- Stephanie Marston

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
- Helen Keller

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.
- Agatha Christie

Burnt out

I'm I the only one around here that is burnt out??!! I sooooo need a vacation. Sometimes I just want to run away and scream. Although, I can't and I really don't want to I get frustrated. Lately my days are the same old stuff. Being a taxi and cleaning this house. Yeah, Yeah....I know....my house is already clean. To me its not. I swear everyday I walk around and pick the same crap up. Why oh why can't everyone just pick up their own stuff. Okay....I'm done with my venting...LOL.

Thank goodness....tomorrow night I get a little break. A few of my friends and I are going out to do a little country line dancing. I really enjoy dancing and it burns tons of calories. I will come home refreshed and a happy mommy! First however, I have to ref two games and watch my son play!!

Enjoy your weekend everyone!!

Sharing another Poem

My Love to you

I love the way you look
at me,
I love the way you smile,
I love the way you
talk to me,
so sweet, so kind,
so mild,
so one day you'll
hold me,
and never let me go,
Don't leave me
hanging,
I want you to know,
to me you will always
be mine,
to melt my lips to
yours,
to never let go.
My hopes, my dreams,
my thoughts,
to which I know
still linger in the
air,
so grab them and let me know.


I wrote this poem to Jay when we were in the 9th grade!! LOL. I have this poem in our wedding album. It was one of my favorites. Below is a picture from our wedding day in 1997.

Old School Poem

A long time ago I wrote poems....(Mostly to Jay but here is one. Of course I kept them all.....) So instead of quotes here is a poem.

You and Me

When you hold me
your eyes I can see,
Then I dream of you and me,
Your kiss so long and lusciously
All it does is just melt me
Sweep through my mind viciously
The nights I prayed you would
just hold me,
One day my dream came
true to see,
The nights I dreamed
about you kissing me
Melting all my thoughts
between you and me
Everything ran rapidly.
You will always be the
one for me
No matter what happens
between you and me!

Remembering

Today I was contacted by an old friend from high school. It was surprising as I was messing around on facebook and all of a sudden an IM pops up and it was her. I haven't "really" chatted with her in so many years. As you know Jay and I had Tyler in our Senior year of high school and our lives took a different course then our friends. I became a mother at the young age of seventeen. I still tried to keep the friends that I had in high school but my life was different. So anyhow....she was one of those friends that slowly became distant and eventually we lost contact. In our conversation we talked about our lives now, kids, family and reminisce about old times. She told me that she was sorry she was such a crappy friend back then. That she should have been there for me. I told her I understood where she was coming from. Looking back....I probably wouldn't have wanted to be friends with the girl that a kid either. Tied down while they were all partying and living it up. Her apology meant so much to me. She told me how proud of me she was....how strong I must of been to make those life decisions then. In so many words she made me feel indescribable. I cryed as I responded to her. She said she has wanted to tell me these things for years. I left the conversation with joy...joy that we connected again...joy that finally someone from high school got it. I knew eventually someone would. lol

I have doubted my decisions so many times in my life...but in reality I'm proud of myself. Proud of the life Jay and I have made. Proud of my kids. I'm a firm beleiver that everything happens for a reason. So now I sit here and secretly thank my old friend for reminding me of how lucky I truly am!! I'm blessed with a wonderful husband and four amazing, healthy and vibrant kids. I sometimes have to remind myself of these things....life can move so quickly that we don't appreciate every moment.

forgot the pics...duh

I forgot to post pictures from the beach. I only took a few with my iPhone. Guess I should have carried my regular camera down to the water.

Have I said busy before!

Wow....have we been busy. Since the kids went back to school I thought I would have some free time...WRONG! With my three pick up times during the day I get nothing done. Will I ever get me time. Maybe in 15+ years. HAHA. Anyhow, Saturday morning we heading off to the beach. We went to Redondo and visited with Jay's Aunt there. She lives right across the street from the ocean, which makes cleaning the kids up wonderful! Spent most of the day at the water and then back up to her house for dinner and good ole smores! yummy! We had a wonderful day and the weather was soooooo beautiful! It was nice to escape the heat here. So funny though....one of the neighbors there said "you better take a easy up its soooo hot today." So of course smart ass me says, "You call 84 degrees hot, you should try to live where we do.....you would melt." I don't think she liked that comment much. So anyhow, we got home about 11pm and man was I tired. Then up early Sunday to meet Jay's family for breakfast in Oak Glen for his mom's birthday. Breakfast was wonderful and we headed home and I tried to take a nap but that didn't pan out. Ever been so tired that you just couldn't sleep. That was me. I really needed that nap before I headed out to work the Def Leopard Concert for Tyler's soccer team. Slinging beers to raise money for youth soccer! Boy times have changed. The concert was great and we raised a ton of money. Needless to say I was so tired and relaxed out back by the pool today.

Tomorrow is back to the grind.....oh the joys of motherhood.

Words for Women to Live By...LOL

Words for Women to Live By!

1. Aspire to be Barbie - the bitch has everything.

2. If the shoe fits - buy them in every color.

3. Take life with a pinch of salt... A wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila.

4. In need of a support group? - Cocktail hour with the girls!

5. Go on the 30 day diet. (I'm on it and so far I've lost 15 days).

6. When life gets you down - just put on your big girl panties and deal with it.

7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality.

8. I know I'm in my own little world, but it's ok. They know me here.

9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself.

10. Don't get your knickers in a knot; it solves nothing and makes you walk funny.

11. When life gives you lemons turn it into lemonade then mix it with vodka.

12. Remember wherever there is a good looking,sweet, single or married man there is some woman tired of his bullshit!

13. Keep your chin up, only the first 40 years of parenthood are hard.

14. If it has Tires or Testicles it's gonna give you trouble.

15. By the time a woman realizes her mother was right, she has a daughter who thinks she's wrong.

Monday Quotes on Tuesday

I missed my monday quotes....so here we go. This week all about family and love.



"Motherhood qualified me to let the child within come out and play"


"Your children will become what you are; so be what you want them to be"


"It is love that makes the impossible possible"


"And in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"


"Happiness is a destination"

I'm Back! LOL

Wow.....it has been forever since I last blogged. This summer has been sooooooooo busy. I swear I haven't a moment to spare. Well where were we.....We have done an awful lot this summer. Beach trips, camping, swimming galore, working concerts for Tyler's soccer team, birthday parties, etc. Here we are now less than a week away from school starting. I have mixed feelings about it. I have enjoyed having the kids home and sleeping in! LOL. Lexie starts kindergarten so now I will just have Claire at home with me. Kind of sad. I better change the subject before I cry.

Anyhow, all the back to school shopping is done. I just have to attend the kindergarten tea tomorrow night and Sierra's back to school night Thursday. I feel exhausted just thinking about it. Saturday night is my 30th birthday party. I can't wait. I will have to give you all the low down! LOL.

Well good night.

A yes and a no

Yes...Melissa.....I've been slacking on my blogging. No...I don't have anthing else to do, so why am I slacking? LOL.

So here is a little run down of the past couple weeks. Lots of soccer, Lexie graduated Pre-K, Ty and Sierra finishing up school, school performances, class parties, BBQ's like crazy, just overall been super busy. Lexie is about to lose her first tooth. Yes people....she is getting big!

So this weekend is the girls big Birthday Luau Pool Party at our house. Sierra will be 9 on friday and Lexie is turning 5 in a couple weeks. What a better way to celebrate with a combo party....2 for 1. I roll that way! LOL. Anyhow, we did alot of yardwork this weekend to start getting ready for it. I still have alot of preparing to do though. Order cake, clean, decorate, finishing touch on yardwork and finish buying all the food. By thursday I will probably be a huge ball of stress. I will write and let you know how that goes. LOL

Mondays Quotes

Here are my five quote picks for the week:

"Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions." -Edgar Cayce

"Friendship is like a prism through which the many variations of beauty are revealed in our lives." -Anon.

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out." -Anon.

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up." -James Baldwin

"WHAT IS LIFE?
Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it"
-Anon.


ENJOY!!!

The Grey Hair

I was just fixing my pony tail and noticed a couple of grey hairs. So I was plucking them out and Lexie says, "What are you doing Mom?" So I respond, "pulling a grey hair out of my head." She says, "Mom, face it your just getting old!" I said, "Thanks alot Lexie." She says, "Well Seriously Mom you are." I started laughing. I'm not even thirty yet for a couple of months. Don't you just love the things that little kids say. So honest and innocent! If the grey hair keeps coming I'm going to have to dye my hair, which I NEVER DO! AUGH